Then, one of my family members comes in and says they can't find an article of clothing they need for tomorrow. An article of clothing that I never even knew existed in the first place. They referred to it as being lost in the abyss. I searched through all the closets and hampers, under other articles of clothing on hangers way back in closets. I looked through my baskets of clean clothes, some folded and some unfolded. Nothing.
My laundry is my weak spot. I work on it but I never, ever get caught up. I feel often like a failure as a homemaker because I don't keep everything spotless, all dishes clean, all laundry done, feet up and having conversation with my family every evening. It is defeating.
Tonight though, when I felt the old fear welling up inside my heart, telling me I will never be enough. Saying "You will never get it right!". I heard my Savior say to me "No, even if you had it all together, it would never be enough". The deceiver, Satan, will always set the bar higher and higher. There will never be a time when you will have prolonged victory in your own strength.
But… But is a wonderful word God uses in the Bible. Often, when a problem is presented, the Word will say "But God". God is always the One who solves our problem. When we turn to Him with our tears in our eyes, our hearts broken, "But God" comes into play. We may not be able to solve our problem, "But God" can, always can. Always will.
In the grand story of the world, we have a problem. We have a problem and no matter how long and hard we work to solve the problem, we can't. That problem is sin. We have wronged God by doing things our way. By leaving Him out of the solution for our problem, we are defenseless against our need to solve it our own way. We work to improve our circumstances. We work to improve our appearance. But in our deepest heart, we know we are not enough. Not enough.
But God…sent His Own Precious Son, to be enough where we cannot be enough. We cannot be good enough, or pretty enough, or entertained enough, or talented enough, to overcome our feeling that we are not enough.
The Lord Jesus is and always has been perfect. Perfect in every way. He never had a bad behavior of any kind. He never acted in any unkind way. As we are imperfect, we need someone to come in to our hearts and perfect us. To mend our broken heart. To forgive us for what we have done wrong, where we have ignored God, where we do not measure up to His perfect standard. To make us enough.
We need Jesus to fill our hearts. He is enough in every way to solve our problem. "Relax", I heard Him say to my spirit. "I am enough". I am your "Enough".
What a wonderful Savior is Jesus! He has everything I need, including me, in the palm of His hand.